I stink at juggling.

Soooooo every time things seem like they are going to slow down something else hits. It's all little stuff when you look at the big picture.... Start a not for profit, travel to China, return jet lagged from China, add a wild and wobbly toddler from China who may die if you don't watch her every second, toddler gets stitches on first outing, Russ' busiest busy season EVER, Zoe starts 3rd grade and freaks out cause it's a new building and much harder, prepare for Kaiya's surgery, cancel surgery (YAY!), immediately evacuate as a hurricane is hurtling toward your home, return home and discover your 9 year old has been TERRIBLY disobedient for 3 weeks and you had NO CLUE!


Yes.... no clue. This disobedience was serious enough that it warrants pretty strict discipline. This discipline requires strict enforcement and oversight by MOMMY! Ahhhhhhh..... yes..... because I needed ONE MORE thing right now.


I keep waiting for that "new normal" to hit. There are days I think it's maybe here but then WHAMO! Something dunks me back under the water and I find myself doggy paddling again.


I don't mean to sound like a whiner. I don't want it to come across as if I am not loving my life. I am! I adore Kaiya, Kaitlyn keeps me giggling daily, Zoe is my sweet darling, my husband is my everything, my extended family is amazing- life is good. Each of those good things I love separately. Together I just can't seem to juggle it quite yet. I feel like if life could just slow down for awhile this would be easier to get.


We are going to make a real effort to SLOOOOW life down. Still though- most of the things in that list were not things we could have or would have changed.... it's just my life. Lately my life is fast and furious. Looking forward I THINK things are about to get easier but I don't want to count my chickens... ;0) Keepin it real. It ain't all roses, Angel