I have been getting asked a lot. A very good question especially with my previous adoption waiting history. ;0) If you weren't a reader last time well JUST BE GRATEFUL! Ask anyone who was so unfortunate as to be my blogger buddy back then.(or heaven FORBID real LIFE friend- ACK) Come on guys you can comment. GO AHEAD! Bring IT ON! I know the truth and I embrace it freely. I was pathetic! I was a drooling, slobbering puddle of whiny goo.... an unkempt, half sane DISASTER. So could it REALLY BE that I am OK right now? Well.... here is the answer complete with goofy photos taken by Kaitlyn!
Here is the situation. Stick with me here cause this is a little complicated. Remember LOA means Letter of Acceptance. That is what we are waiting for from China. Once we get it Kaiya is legally OURS and we will travel in about 6 weeks!
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There are only 2 people ahead of my group waiting for final approval from the Chinese government at our agency. These POOR people are at 100 days waiting today which STINKS! Remember you usually get it by or a tad after 90 days. So it feels a little like being 41 weeks prego. Not unheard of or strange just a little frustrating. So anyway, there are 4 of us behind them that are all at 78 days today. So the four of us are also well within the "could get the LOA" stage. Not only that- a friend of mine got her LOA yesterday (YAY!!!!) and she was at 76 days. BUT she wasn't with our agency which means she has a different reviewer which means that means NOTHING for us! Well, not nothing... it does mean the government is working and sending out LOAs this week. So that is good. Sooo anyway.... there is a possibility that when this next package comes it could have LOA's for all 6 of us. Since they are at 100 days it has to come any day now. RIGHT??? PLEASE!
BUT there is also a possibility that I won't be in this next packet at ALL. THAT is where it gets hard. Every week we have been expecting to hear and then I could just KNOW whether I am in this packet or not. AAAACKKKK!
It feels like it has to be this week but if it's not I will probably be in Africa when they hear which will be hard for me. Really I just want to know whether we are coming with this packet or NOT. The suspense is what is getting to me. I'll be fine either way but my curiosity is getting out of control. DEEEEEP BREATHS ANGEL! DEEEEP BREATHS!
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So every time the phone rings I JUMP! I keep stalking the forum to see if these sweet ladies have gotten their LOAs cause I know they would call them first and then I would know that it was coming or just wasn't going to happen this time around. Anyway, so this is the most wound up I have felt the whole adoption. There are a lot of scenes where I am SCRAMBLING for my phone in dread that I will miss THE call. HA HA HA!! Anyway, last night one of the sweet ladies on my AWESOME forum asked me if I would really be OK if we didn't get in this packet. I just wanted to share my response with you since so many of you have wondered the same thing.
OH GOSH!! I'm no woman of steel. I will be a little bummed. Mostly I just learned the VERY hard way my first adoption that worrying and being upset doesn't change things one smidgen. It just steals the joy out of where I am.Whether or not I get LOA with you two I have an amazing life and I am so blessed. I know that the truth is that God has been caring for Kaiya long before I knew her and He is the one in control. I am working hard to give up my illusions of control and just treasure each moment. I have REALLY had so much fun this wait. I have two wonderful girls and I keep packing as much cuddle time and fun in with these two as I can before they have to share me with a fun little Kaiya!! Soooooo that's the long answer. I will be a little bummed but I will be overjoyed for you and at total peace that if Kaiya is ours God will bring her home because His heart longing for her to have a home is what moved my heart to adopt in the first place. He wants a home for these babies even more than I do. God rarely does things the way I would do them and l am usually so grateful for that EVENTUALLY! When God's will and mine coincide it's like a nice little bonus! Hee hee hee... ;0) So when you get that LOA I will shout for joy whether or not I am on the list this time. GEEZ!!! You have done your time for SURE!!! Please let it be tomorrow to "celebrate" 100 days. HA! HA!!
So that's where I am folks. That's where I am.... edgy but still pretty sane. There have been no tears or sleepless nights. It's more like sitting in a really suspenseful movie. You know something is about to happen- or is it? You are on the edge of your seat. The poor unfortunate soul next to you has claw marks in their arm. You are waiting, Waiting, WAITING...... TELL ME ALREADY!!!!!! I CAN'T TAKE IT! JUST TELL ME!
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That's where I am. Similar to the incident where I was stalking the mail man for my I 171-H but with a much more intricate and intriguing plot line. Will she REALLY be approved to adopt? Will there be a cat fight on the waiting child forum? Stay tuned ladies and gentlemen to see if Angel does IN FACT lose her mind..... DOH DOH DOH!!! ;0) Angel