..to SLOW DOWN! As much as I want to just have life skip along as usual it just never does. Kai is amazing and his adjustment has been the most any parent could hope for... BUT it's still an adjustment.
It's still just learning how to do life with FOUR!
I am finding my kids need a little more right now. Nobody is super jealous. Nobody is melting down. They just need extra hugs, extra cuddles, extra everything.
Not to mention that we have had more sickness floating around this house than we have in YEARS! It has really knocked us out.
I know this is just a season but for some reason it's hard for me to accept doing this. Why is that??
To be really honest- I HATE disappointing people. I hate it. It's so hard for me to say no to things I love doing and to things that I even consider important.
Especially in this season I had planned a lot of things I loved with all my capacity cause I had no clue I would have a new little guy so quickly.
As my wise Daddy once told me, "Angel, there are things you want and there are things you want more. You just have to always remember which is which."
How true that is. I want to go to parties and science classes and field trips and bible studies and family trips. Usually I adore those things and thrive on them. I think they are important! I want to do them.
BUT there is something I want more. I want to slow down enough to hear God's voice. I want to be a gentle and kind wife. I want to help heal the hearts of the children I have brought into my family. I want my children to feel deeply loved and valued. I want to be healthy as a person. I want to be real and not pretend I can do it all. I can't.
So here goes. Time to put first things first..
We canceled a trip to Disney for Christmas knowing we need to slow down. It'll be time to go again soon enough.
I'm gonna love my husband and snuggle my babies. I'm gonna keep some schooling going and try to keep us all healthy. Everything else is gonna have to be optional for awhile.
You know what? Instead of fighting it I really just want to embrace it! I want to soak in every second of the cuddling and slow pace knowing that in mere moments they will be grown.
That is if I have the honor of watching them grow. We never know how many moments we have left with one another. I've got to keep 1st things 1st. I never want to look back and regret the time I spent...
Ahhh.. I'm gonna go cuddle with a munchkin now.
Hugs, Angel :-)