Strange Milestones


I guess normally parents just celebrate the usual milestones. You know what I mean... birthdays, first steps, first whatever. I seem to be reaching some really odd milestones with Zoe. Yesterday I walked by the window and saw Zoe and Kaitlyn jumping on the trampoline. Zoe glanced over so I waved a little. Then something amazing happened! She just kept jumping. Now I know that may not seem particularly amazing to you but I felt this strange relief pour over me. I realized in that moment that it was the first time she had better things to do than stop and give her full attention to me. I know that sounds weird and I'm not even sure how to make this make sense. Ever since Zoe came home she has always needed to acknowledge us in some way. I have heard it called "anxiously attached." She has loved us from the start but there is fear and a need to try so hard. It's hard to put your finger on what feels strange but it's just that it's not always "natural." She's just so crazy attentive and perfect sometimes. Kaitlyn doesn't stop jumping and wave and then immediately run in and say, "We jump mommy. We are having fun!" every single time I walk past a window. Now please don't get me wrong! I am not complaining or saying that this behavior is at all "bad." I'm just saying it felt forced and odd sometimes. I have been waiting for the day when she would just be a normal kid who is too busy to stop everything. Now suddenly it's happening. She feels safe enough to ignore me! SWEET!!!!What a milestone for us. I know that seems really strange but it is such a great feeling. I feel like she is starting to transition from anxiously attached to firmly attached. I love seeing her finally start to feel safe for maybe the first time in her life. Now that is a milestone worth celebrating. Hugs, Angel