To adopt or not to adopt....

Is it time to start the process? Is it NOT time? Domestic or international? Boy or girl? Baby, toddler or older child? When you are having bio babies the question is pretty much, "Do we want to have more?" If the answer is yes you better get going cause the clock is ticking. With adoption the options are not as clear cut.

I LOVE having the flexibility for sure. It does make for some grand feelings of insecurity though. What should we do? What if I get it wrong? Am I being selfish or logical? Am I walking in faith or jumping in without thinking?

I mean we can go all the way from adopt an infant now or wait ten years and adopt a sibling set who are a little older. There are NO limits. The hard part is that I am ALL OVER THE MAP! One day I want to start an adoption. The next day I am like NO WAY! Life is pretty great right now. My girls are so awesome. They are now getting pretty self sufficient and life is getting easier. It's hard to imagine starting over with a baby again.

Then again.... a BABY! Awww they are such precious little blessings. Barfing, drooling, crying blessings!!!!!!!!!! AAAACCCCKKK! I've gotten used to sleeping and I feel like Russ and I are doing great. WHY would I want to add that stress? Then again.... we both WANT more kids. I LOOOOOVE the toddler stage and I KNOW I want to do that again. This is pretty much what my brain is like these days. Hard to keep up with huh?

No wonder I feel so tired.

Angel