It's 5:30 am.... TOO EXCITED TO SLEEP!

I slept for about 5 hours then I just woke up thinking, "OH MY WORD! This is it!!! This is the day I meet Kaiya Rain Zhen." I can hardly believe this. I mean really guys. I am going to go to some little room and they are going to hand me my daughter and that's IT! She will be my baby... it's surreal. You know with Zoe we visited a lot and kind of built to this point. By the time we picked her up I had spent two months of time in visits with her. This is SOO different. I am so CRAZY curious about her personality. 

What do you think she will be like? Hey there's a fun game while we wait. How about we guess what we think she will be like. LOL! Leave me a comment if you have a guess...

I am going to say that I have very little clue what she will be like at first cause she'll be grieving. I am going to guess a bit shut down for a bit would be expected. Generally I would guess major cuddle bug and a cool little cat. From her pictures I would guess she is not easily bothered. She's like WHATEVER! Anyway, I really have no idea! I am SO CURIOUS!! I am a teeny bit nervous. What if this is hard? You know what though? What keeps coming to my heart is that God picked this little one to be in OUR family. So no matter what her personality it is EXACTLY what will shape our family to be what it should be. Maybe that is what I imagine. Maybe it's very different but I trust it is just what it should be.

What do you think she will be like??? I have been sitting here reading all the comments. It is so much fun. Between Skype and you guys commenting I don't feel like I am all the way across the world. It makes it feel more like a found the coolest China town EVER! LOL! Oh to find this place in America. It's amazing guys. If you are coming to China you need to seriously consider a hop to Hangzhou. WOW! I absolutely ADORE it here. It's like a beautiful movie. You just walk around going- no way- no one sees this in real life. 

This adventure is more than I could hope for. God's plans are so much more amazing than what I could have cooked up for myself. This place I have come to in my heart- surrender- it's making me more than I ever thought I wanted to be. I have such peace and joy. I am not saying that I don't have hard times- I do. I am just saying even in those times I have deep joy. I don't feel as crazy as I used to inside. I now get those people who are patient and peaceful. They used to make me crazy.

Surrender.... saying yes to God when you don't know what the question is. It sounds so scary. I've always said the most wonderful things in life are the scariest. Surrender is one of those things. 

It's almost here.. almost!

Hugs, Angel